Monday, May 19, 2008

Birth- My First Mother's Day


My mom gave me something on my first Mother's Day that I would like to share:

Birth
I Samuel 1:12-20 12 As she kept on praying to the LORD, Eli observed her mouth. 13 Hannah was praying in her heart, and her lips were moving but her voice was not heard. Eli thought she was drunk 14 and said to her, "How long will you keep on getting drunk? Get rid of your wine."

15 "Not so, my lord," Hannah replied, "I am a woman who is deeply troubled. I have not been drinking wine or beer; I was pouring out my soul to the LORD. 16 Do not take your servant for a wicked woman; I have been praying here out of my great anguish and grief."

17 Eli answered, "Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him."

18 She said, "May your servant find favor in your eyes." Then she went her way and ate something, and her face was no longer downcast.

19 Early the next morning they arose and worshiped before the LORD and then went back to their home at Ramah. Elkanah lay with Hannah his wife, and the LORD remembered her. 20 So in the course of time Hannah conceived and gave birth to a son. She named him Samuel, [c] saying, "Because I asked the LORD for him."

Ecclesiastes 3:2a - "...there is...a time to be born." I Samuel 1:27a - "For this child I prayed." Psalm 139:13b - "Thou didst knit me together in my mother's womb."

"Wonder and mystery surround the birth of a child. Children are always fascinated when a new baby comes into a home. Thousands of children are born into the world every day. Man is learning much about the hidden process of conception. Yet the wonder and the mystery remains.

In the womb of the mother, unseen by human eyes, life is formed. The body in all of its amazing complexity is taking shape, every part imbedded marvelously in the germ of the tiny beginning. And in some mysterious way the factors that will shape the mind and the personality of the new-formed life, are being woven in to that living organism.

How far humanity has strayed from due reverence for life, and due reverence for the God of life, when they say that a pregnant woman has the right to do with her body what she wants to do, and then lay bloddy hands on the life conceived in her womb.

When Hannah had given birth to her son, she called him Samuel, saying, "I have asked him of the Lord," and her testimony to Eli was, "For this child I prayed." Her heart was filled with praise as she thought on the wonder of God's grace and power in her conception.

Parents of a newborn infant, join hands with Hannah. Join with her in praising the God of life."


As I celebrated my first Mother's Day, I realized that every day for me is truly Mother's Day. While the actual "Mother's Day" is a recognition and celebration of mothers all around the U.S., I am a mom every day. Yesterday was challenging. I'm not sure what today is going to bring. With the discovery of AJ's reflux one week ago, we are having to change things and I am especially having to be more aware of his every move. I want to make sure he is not in pain. So, every day, I am a mom. Every day, even the challenging days, at one point God shows me His amazing creation in AJ. At another point, I am asking Him to help me through the day, but I am thoroughly amazed by this child. I sometimes question why God gave him to me- the question holds two meanings at different times through the day. But I am thankful.

As I rocked AJ to sleep yesterday, praying that his little body could rest in the heat and his over-tiredness, I sang to him.

"I have a Father, He calls me His own. He'll never leave me, no matter where I go. He knows my name. He knows my every thought. He sees each tear that falls, and hears me when I call. I have a Maker, He formed my heart. Before even time began, my life was in His hands. He knows my name. he knows my every thought. He sees each tear that falls, and hears me when I call. He hears me when I call. He hears me when I call."

Monday, May 5, 2008

Being a Mommy


So, we've been lacking in publishing posts on this blog too (today I published my first post on my personal blog since August 2007....yeah). It's May 5, and in three days, AJ will officially be 3 months old. I love it.

So much has happened and he changes so much everyday. Rather than rack my post-preggie brain for all the recent changes, I will discuss the newest (and most fun so far) one. This past week he seems to have found his voice. He becomes more aware and "social" everyday it seems. But he's really started "talking" and jabbering. It started mostly with talking to Star-Star- a stuffed star that plays music and lights up which is attached to his play gym. The morning routine is to put him in his play gym after being fed, before his morning nap. He has always seemed to love this time, but it's like he has time with his friends in the morning now. Today, I moved him so that Mr. Duck (a stuffed, green duck that squeaks when you squeeze him) was right above his left arm. Well, AJ had a full jabber, squealing, giggling conversation with him, while batting at him with his little fist. His arms are long enough now that he can touch his play gym friends, and Mr. Duck was for surely flying around this morning.

His talking gets going again while changing his morning diapers. My heart soars when he makes eye contact with me, smiles his silly little grins and says "hi" (if you say "hi" over and over, he'll repeat the 'i' vowel sound and it sounds like he's saying "hi" back to you). I never imagined the love I experience when this silly conversation happens. It's hard for me to put him down for a nap- I just want to keep talking to him.

Lastly, he talks to himself. Yesterday, he barely cried for any of his naps, but Gus and I would hear him in his crib, talking away. I wonder what his little brain is thinking- it's just amazing to see how fast he has changed even this past week. Good times had by all. He'll be talking up a storm this weekend with both sets of grandparents in town for his dedication and Mother's Day. I can't wait!